MY illness

heyloo....
its been a long time i log in to my blog.
i miss my blog a lot.
whatever i am saying here, pls do not sympathy me ok?
during the camp challenge 2009,
on the 2nd day of camp,
i feel a sudden cold and then i started to cough.
later, when i about to assemble at the Sangam, the place where i assemble , i started to feel leg pain and numbness in my right foot. i am quite scared of it. i scared that my illness will come back again like during the annual camp 2009. this thing always happened after 7pm. later, i started to feel sharped pain in my right hip then sudden pain in my right shoulder and my arms.... then, the teachers, the staff over there and my teacher asked me to go back home and go to the doctor about my case. the next day when i woke up, i feel pain in both of my hips and my shoulders. later, i then do research at the internet about my condition. to my surprise, my condition is very serious. the cause of this is because of my nerve that could be damage . they also said that i must quickly get treated before the condition worsen. they also said that i need medical attention by specialist. OMG! i fear doctors and specialist the most. what should i do??? i scared what if i need operation ? i fear that too.... what should i do?

yours truly,
theSickLoverlyGerlThatIsTroubleD........